NIGEL NOLAN

dead foliage

2011-12-19T09:36:00.000-03:00

one of the studios is still filled with dead foliage. part of me would like throw it away. JOEL asked me not to.

a return

2011-12-18T09:30:00.000-03:00

i'm back after a bit of traveling. i traveled alone this time. i made some paintings during my time away. FeD thinks they are "self-obsessed". i agree.

month off

2011-11-17T09:19:00.000-03:00

FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i will be taking the next month off. see you when i get back.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB

2011-11-13T18:36:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i don’t know how to get out of this.

DANIEL

2011-11-08T18:23:00.000-03:00

DANIEL,
i am surrounded by lifeless foliage.

FeD

2011-11-07T18:16:00.000-03:00

FeD,
i have stopped removing the foliage from the tree. last night i painted the flowers and shadows.

TREE

2011-11-05T17:41:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i am still removing the foliage.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB

2011-11-02T17:32:00.000-03:00

23 days ago a tree was hit by a car. it initially looked like this. in full bloom. i salvaged what i could.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i have stopped trying to hydrate the tree. it was futile.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB

2011-11-01T17:19:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
the water was not helping.

FeD

2011-10-30T16:37:00.000-03:00

FeD,
i have stopped trying to hydrate the tree. i made this painting for you. i hope you like it.

SEB

2011-10-28T16:58:00.000-03:00

i sent this photograph to SEB. his girlfriend loves it.

SEB,
i’m thrilled things are going so well for the two of you up there. thank you for the invitation, but i have to finish things here first. i miss coffee with you in the mornings.

DANIEL

2011-10-26T16:40:00.000-03:00

DANIEL,
at times like this, it is difficult not to think about you.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB

2011-10-25T16:23:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i have stopped trying to hydrate the tree.

SEB

2011-10-23T16:21:00.000-03:00

SEB,
it’s spring in buenos aires. i wish you were here.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB

2011-10-22T16:02:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i have been trying to hydrate the tree. it seems futile.

hydrate

2011-10-21T15:59:00.000-03:00

i have been trying to hydrate the tree. it seems futile.

hydrate

2011-10-19T21:19:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i have been trying to hydrate the tree.

SEB and NIGEL

2011-10-18T12:50:00.000-03:00

SEB,
thank you for the email. i painted this little painting for you.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB

2011-10-17T12:44:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
5 days ago a tree was hit by a car. 4 blocks from here. it was in full bloom. i salvaged what i could.

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB

2011-10-15T12:33:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
3 days ago a tree was hit by a car. 4 blocks from here. it was in full bloom.

SEB

2011-10-11T11:09:00.000-03:00

spring has started in buenos aires. it feels different without SEB.

SEB,
i made this little painting for you.

FeD: trust

2011-10-10T10:58:00.000-03:00

FeD called last night.

SEB

2011-10-08T10:41:00.000-03:00

i took this photograph during SEB’s last day in buenos aires. he was nervous.

OMAR: suit

2011-10-07T22:07:00.000-03:00

OMAR,
i painted this suit for you. it's not meant to look like you.

the help

2011-10-06T21:26:00.000-03:00

a big thank you to all the help. without you, none of this would be possible.

SEB: dominican republic

2011-10-05T20:47:00.000-03:00

SEB,
i keep thinking about you. thank you for the invitation.

SEB: dr

2011-10-04T18:53:00.000-03:00

i painted a t-shirt and sent it to SEB. SEB sent me this photograph.

SEB,
thank you.

*SEB's girlfriend took this photograph

**FeD designed and constructed this t-shirt.

SEB: spring

2011-10-03T10:17:00.000-03:00

spring has started in buenos aires. it feels different without SEB.

SEB,
thank you for all the emails and phone calls. you're a great friend. i miss you too. sorry my replies have been so distant. i hope you're learning a lot.

DANIEL

2011-10-01T17:00:00.000-03:00

i took this photograph of DANIEL 23 months ago. i was very angry. DANIEL refused to eat. he hated the waiters with white gloves.

DANIEL,
i will never go to the alvear palace again.

DANIEL

2011-09-29T16:49:00.000-03:00

DANIEL,
after you left us, i heard a lot of stories about you. i kept silent. i know this blog did not make it easy for you. i can be very stubborn. at times i regret some of our fights.

DANIEL

2011-09-28T16:45:00.000-03:00

DANIEL,

i made this little triptych about us. i hope you like it.

DANIEL

2011-09-27T16:37:00.000-03:00

DANIEL,

remember when that woman from india took us to the four seasons for drinks? i was uncomfortable. i knew you wanted to leave. i'm sorry i didn't speak up for you.

DANIEL

2011-09-26T16:14:00.000-03:00

i spent most of the weekend with my photographs of DANIEL. i made a few drawings, but they don't do him justice.

DANIEL,
remember when i made that plum cake for you? the one you ate and pretended to like? i couldn't stop laughing about it.

DANIEL

2011-09-23T16:05:00.000-03:00

i would like to dedicate this next week to DANIEL.

FeD: night

2011-09-22T16:31:00.000-03:00

2 days ago i met with FeD. i listened a lot. he looked great. i didn't know what to say.

FeD,
we are here for a reason. i still trust you.

the help

2011-09-19T16:20:00.000-03:00

a big thank you to the help. without you, none of this would be possible.

OMAR: smoke

2011-09-18T16:17:00.000-03:00

last night i woke up to the smell of smoke.

OMAR,
can you start smoking on the balcony? that is what we do in canada.

SEB: dr

2011-09-16T12:03:00.000-03:00

SEB sent me this photograph. i think he looks great in the ocean.

SEB,
we miss you here. spring is starting. it makes me think of you.

*SEB's girlfriend took this photograph

JOEL and NIGEL

2011-09-13T11:02:00.000-03:00

JOEL: you're canadian.
NIGEL: i know.
JOEL: that is part of the developed world.
NIGEL: i know.
JOEL: why are you struggling here?

JOEL: teeth

2011-09-12T10:51:00.000-03:00

JOEL,
remember 2006? when i sold a painting and used the money to fix your teeth? those 5 extractions and 5 replacements? it was the start of this project.

NIGEL and FeD

2011-09-11T10:44:00.000-03:00

FeD,
i painted this diptych of us. i hope you like it. i will call you tomorrow.

FeD: tux

2011-09-08T19:55:00.000-03:00

FeD,
i think i saw you last night. you were in a tux. you looked great. i was in dirty jeans and a tank. i felt the distance between us.

NIGEL

2011-09-07T19:45:00.000-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
it's been a difficult few months. thank you for understanding.

OMAR: past

2011-09-06T19:41:00.000-03:00

OMAR,
i don't want to talk about the hospital.

SEB: 40 years old

2011-09-05T19:34:00.000-03:00

SEB,
i had a dream about you. you were 40 and starting your phd.

growth

2011-09-05T19:09:00.000-03:00

OMAR: you're canadian.
NIGEL: i know.
OMAR: why are you here?

FeD

2011-09-04T18:38:00.000-03:00

3 days ago i received a phone call from FeD. he asked to meet with me.

FeD,
i know what happened to you. you know what happened to me. i'm not ready to talk right now. at times i miss you too.

OMAR: growth

2011-09-02T18:31:00.000-03:00

OMAR and i spent the day talking about growth. we both need it.

OMAR,
you are doing the right thing.

a return to OMAR

2011-09-01T18:26:00.000-03:00

2 days ago OMAR returned to constitucion. i missed him.

OMAR,
welcome back.

SEB: 3 months ago

2011-08-31T18:21:00.000-03:00

3 months ago your money helped SEB leave argentina. i decided not to go to the airport. i gave him a t-shirt instead. i still miss him.

*SEB's brother took this photograph.

FeD: 9 years old

2011-08-29T18:14:00.000-03:00

2 days ago i received a phone call from FeD's mom. she told me what happened 16 years ago.

FeD,
that must have been a difficult time for you.

SEB: growth

2011-08-28T18:08:00.000-03:00

last night i talked with SEB. i told him our connection made me grow.

SEB,
thank you.

SEB: box

2011-08-26T18:03:00.000-03:00

SEB,
remember this box i made for you? i sent it to canada. one day we will visit it. i promise.

JOEL: tux

2011-08-24T17:40:00.000-03:00

JOEL,
don't worry. you look great.

OMAR: thank you

2011-08-22T17:36:00.000-03:00

OMAR,
thank you for calling last night. it meant a lot to me. don't worry about me. i'll see you soon.

JOEL

2011-08-21T17:30:00.000-03:00

last night i met with JOEL. he looked rough.

JOEL,
sorry i haven't been there for you during this last month.

FeD: hold

2011-08-19T23:30:00.000-03:00

FeD,
i needed you to hold me up.

FeD

2011-08-19T22:31:00.000-03:00

FeD,
i need some time for this post. i'm not sure how to end this.

FeD

2011-08-18T22:15:00.000-03:00

FeD,
remember these walls? you spent months with them. now you know what they represent. it has nothing to do with you.

FeD: look away

2011-08-17T14:52:00.000-03:00

FeD,
please look away.

FeD: mirror

2011-08-16T19:09:00.002-03:00

FeD,
5 days ago i told you a terrible secret. it had festered inside me for 27 years. you couldn't stop looking in the mirror.

FeD

2011-08-15T20:29:00.000-03:00

FeD,
you will always look great in a tux. so strong and chic.

FeD: palacio duhau

2011-08-14T21:27:00.002-03:00

FeD,
remember our evening in palacio duhau? such a sweet ending to a difficult day.

FeD: last week

2011-08-13T16:37:00.001-03:00

FeD,
this next week will be dedicated to you. it will also be our last week together. we tried. thank you for everything.

OMAR: break

2011-07-22T15:39:00.001-03:00

OMAR left to visit him mom. last night we talked about a break from buenos aires. he will be far from the city for a few weeks.

OMAR,
give your mom a kiss for me. i know she loves seeing you in a suit.

FeD

2011-07-21T11:46:00.000-03:00

3 months ago FeD moved in. it seemed like the right thing to do. the first month was great. white walls and a new start. OMAR liked it too. now it is cold here. OMAR thinks we are making a big mistake.

FeD,
these paintings are not finished. i wish they were.

trust

2011-06-29T23:20:00.011-03:00

i am back from an extended break.

29 months ago i started a project with 4 argentine guys: DANIEL, JOEL, OMAR and SEB.
17 months ago DANIEL left us.
13 months ago we met FeD.
i intended to end this project after 14 months.

FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,

is this relationship built on trust? why am i still here?

OMAR: stand

2011-06-02T12:14:00.002-03:00

OMAR,

we're still standing.

tumblr

2011-05-31T12:12:00.002-03:00

tumblr accoount - http://nigelnolan.tumblr.com/

OMAR wants to leave

2011-05-30T13:13:00.003-03:00

last night OMAR talked about his 30 years in argentina. he wants to leave.

SEB,
OMAR and i are thinking about you.

SEB and FeD

2011-05-29T13:01:00.005-03:00

SEB,
remember our first conversation about FeD? i can't stop thinking about it.

SEB: 26 months ago

2011-05-27T11:45:00.000-03:00

SEB,
last night i looked at our first pictures together. you were skinny and confused. i was angry. a lot has changed in 26 months. thank you for everything. i think we did a good job.

SEB and JOEL

2011-05-26T11:38:00.002-03:00

SEB,
last night JOEL and i talked about you. he misses you too.

SEB

2011-05-25T11:06:00.003-03:00

SEB,
i wish our last 3 months had been different. things became complicated. FeD and OMAR can be difficult. you did the right thing. i think about you away from all of this.

SEB,
i'm trying to reach higher too.

FeD: compassion

2011-05-24T11:33:00.001-03:00

it has been a difficult week. FeD has shown very little compassion.

FeD,
this is not a competition.

SEB

2011-05-23T10:55:00.003-03:00

2 days ago SEB landed in a country far from us.

SEB,
look up.

SEB: last night

2011-05-21T10:43:00.007-03:00

i painted this t-shirt* for SEB. i wanted something of mine close to him.

*FeD cut and constructed this t-shirt. FED, thank you.

SEB: bye

2011-05-20T10:36:00.002-03:00

SEB leaves on a plane today. i am happy for him.

SEB,
these photographs were difficult for me to take. i will miss you.

FeD: stop

2011-05-19T20:21:00.003-03:00

last night FeD told me he is happy to see SEB leave. i couldn't reply.

FeD,
stop.

SEB

2011-05-18T20:11:00.001-03:00

SEB,
i will miss you a lot. you have dreamed of leaving on a plane for a long time. i'm happy this project is helping you do it.

OMAR and SEB

2011-05-17T20:06:00.001-03:00

OMAR,
SEB bought the ticket and will leave on friday. i will miss him terribly.

SEB: ticket

2011-05-15T17:40:00.000-03:00

last night SEB and i talked about a ticket.

SEB,
i think you should do it. we can help.

tonight

2011-05-13T11:37:00.002-03:00

we have an event in the house tonight. it has been a turbulent 2 weeks. we will put on a good face for our guests.

FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
let's move forward.

OMAR: stop

2011-05-12T10:28:00.001-03:00

OMAR,
SEB read the letter you left me. we talked after. i want this to stop.

OMAR: a new suit

2011-05-11T10:22:00.000-03:00

last night i dressed OMAR.

OMAR,
we have lived together for a few months. i don't see you as an argentine boy. you're a suit.

anon

2011-05-10T10:36:00.001-03:00

we have searched for the owners of this blood. we fear they will remain anonymous.

a week off

2011-05-09T20:39:00.001-03:00

i took a week off from all of this. OMAR and SEB have been fighting constantly. i wish i didn't have to take a side.

JOEL and SEB

2011-05-02T10:48:00.001-03:00

5 months ago JOEL and SEB met. JOEL wanted nothing to do with him. we have had a few dinners together since.

SEB,
JOEL have you changed your mind?

audience

2011-05-01T10:35:00.003-03:00

a big thank you to the audience.

JOEL

2011-04-29T10:44:00.001-03:00

last night JOEL and i talked about OMAR and SEB. JOEL never takes sides.

JOEL,
i trust you.

OMAR and SEB

2011-04-28T10:35:00.003-03:00

OMAR and SEB,
which one of you is lying?

mirror

2011-04-27T10:29:00.002-03:00

i spent the day looking in the mirror.

2011-04-26T11:15:00.002-03:00

JOEL,
good morning.

easter monday

2011-04-25T11:27:00.001-03:00

day off.

6 weeks ago

2011-04-24T09:58:00.002-03:00

6 weeks ago FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB were published in an argentine publication. JOEL was nervous about it. yesterday a woman recognized JOEL on the street. he wouldn't talk to me after.

good friday

2011-04-22T09:40:00.001-03:00

DANIEL, FeD, JOEL, OMAR and SEB,
i am thinking of you today.

OMAR: older

2011-04-21T09:16:00.000-03:00

OMAR and i talked about getting older. he is older than FeD, JOEL and SEB.

OMAR,
29 is full of potential.

SEB: break

2011-04-20T13:39:00.002-03:00

SEB,
you need a break. you look tired. we can help you, but we can't do it all.

smoke

2011-04-19T12:33:00.001-03:00

a big thank you to the audience. without you, this would not be possible.

FeD: look forward

2011-04-18T09:59:00.001-03:00

FeD,
being the new guy is not easy. as you know, it also has its benefits. please look forward.